No Gray.

*Skips rambling on why I’m never here*

*Skips the part where I promise to be more active, and then I try to but then, we are back here again*

Good! Now that I’ve been able to get that over with, I’ll like to write on why this is up, not like I’ll be doing much writing anyway. I have work pending that wouldn’t get done by itself, but I needed a break and thought I should stop by here. Yay.

black or white

It’s been quite a year already. I really was going to do a quick review on how 2014 panned out for me, but you see, the way this procrastination thing is set up, that couldn’t happen. I’ve struggled with a couple of things, and doing pretty good in some other areas. I’m thankful for that. I have learned a few things about myself and like to think that I just might have grown up a little too.

One area I’ve been struggling in? You mean asides procrastination?

Ha, I’m not sure I know how to put it down right, with my words. However, this is why this is up. I listened to ‘No Gray” for the very first time by Jonathan McReynolds and he couldn’t have helped any better than this to talk about this long time struggle.

Now, this isn’t a post claiming that I have found out exactly how to end this struggle or me figuring things out and now knowing what to do or how to do things; this is just a song I can relate to. This is how I feel and frankly, I’m exhausted.

You can listen to the song here if you don’t know it already. I have also typed out most of it below (actually, copy and paste) to help save your data or if you just can’t give it a listen now. Here you go:

Cause I feel like at some point in everybody’s life, We feel like this:

Lord I’m split in two
Part of me loves the world
And the other loves You
So what do I do
I wanna be saved
But I got to stay cool too
And no I’m not a fool
I know eventually I’m gonna have to choose
And really I don’t wanna lose
My ticket into heaven
And a chance to be used by You

And if it’s God that I’m after
I can’t serve two masters
And before something happens
I got to turn it all around
Because I know
I can’t just have my cake and eat it too
Cause it’s real easy to stay on the fence and still do you
And it’d be cool if we could love the Lord and still go do our thing
But see it doesn’t work like that
You gotta to be white or black

Lord see I’ve realized
when it comes to sin
You just don’t compromise
It’s a matter of death and life
Be weak and do wrong
Or be strong and do right
And I don’t wanna keep going to church
Singing all about how much You’re worth
And then continue doing my dirt
Living as if I didn’t care if You’re hurt

If it’s God we’re after
I just can’t serve two masters
And before something happens
I got to turn it all around
Because you know
I can’t just have my cake and eat it too

Cause it’s really easy to stay on the fence and still do you
And it’d be cool if we could love the Lord and still go do our thing
But see it don’t work like that
You gotta be white or black

Cause it don’t work like that
You gotta pick white or black

No Gray
No shades of gray

Don’t work like that
You gotta be white or black.

Bonne nuit.

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