His Story VII by Ezechukwu

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Today’s story was sent in by one of our readers, Ezechukwu

This is his story.

Please Read.

The ‘Beneath the Smile’ Project.

behind the smile

Hi, I’m Ezechukwu.

I’m not here to tell everyone my sob story of how my life has been miserable and I how wish I would just die. If I had one, I’d tell it. My life has been pretty comfortable, spectacular in measured doses.

I once read somewhere that the biggest comedians are secretly the saddest people. I’m known for bringing laughter and joy into people’s lives, but deep down, I’m the most disturbed youth I know.

I’m not disturbed because I feel life has been unfair to me. I’m disturbed because I feel I have been unfair to life. I grew up a very smart kid. Always top of my class, I breezed through primary school in a blaze of glory, took secondary school by the horns and wrestled it to the ground. As early as my JSS 2, I was representing my school in inter-collegiate competitions, and I won a huge number of them two.

From then this my SS 2, I was the golden boy, the one that everybody expected to be the next Ben Carson, Wole Soyinka, or Philip Emeagwali. I didn’t let it all get to my head, I continued to strive for excellence. But somehow, everything went irredeemably downhill like a rock in free fall.

First, I stirred up a riot in my school then. I honestly do not know what made me do that. I guess I was just, bored. Anyway, the school authorities felt I was becoming too big for the school and that they had to deflate by ego.

You think by virtue of the fact that you represent this school nationally and internationally, you can do whatever you want and get away with it?” the Principal barked.

I was expelled.

All that hardwork…flushed away.

I picked up myself in time for WAEC and JAMB. WAEC was very good, JAMB was average. I failed to get admission into any university to study Medicine and Surgery. I couldn’t stay at home, and I had to settle for Botany.

I hate school. I hate the fact that I’m here, studying plants when I believe I’m smart enough to study something better. I detest every single day that I have to wake up, take my bath and go school. I have no love for what I’m doing and it affects my reading comprehension. When I do poorly in my exams, I stare at the results’ sheet blankly for as long as it takes me to convince myself that I don’t care. My GP is 2.25, and I don’t care. I hate what I’ve become, a boy who USED to be very smart. Now I don’t know if I’m doing poorly because I hate what I’m doing, or I hate what I’m doing because I’m doing poorly.

I used to be able to effortlessly understand what was taught, or what was in the textbook. Now I struggle.

The worst part about all this? My family and friends have no idea about my degeneration. They still think I’m the golden boy of ages past. They have no idea.

Hey mum, here’s my certificate. I graduated with a third class.

Yeah, that would be that day.

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Don’t just read, say a prayer.

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4 thoughts on “His Story VII by Ezechukwu

  1. That is alot. But really ders something u should noe. A friend of mine always talks about utilising whatever talent or gift she thinks she might have from God especially when they are related to her vision for her life so that God wouldn’t have any reason to not give her stuff for her vision when the time comes.
    I think and hope u can apply this. Its not what u want (botany) bt hw do u expect God to give u medicine n d rest if u hvnt shown that u can still do it. Yes, m sure he knows bt den u prolly still just have to show urself approved.
    Now thats just a line of thought that u can apply. I really dnt noe if its true. Bt den really again….its just like those people that God gave talents or so in d bible sha. And hw d one who did nothing with it had it taken away from him.
    I hope its nt too late to step up that gp. Ure worth more than uve made urself seem. U can do it. I believe in u, ur family believes in u n m sure d followers on this blog believe in u n r prayin for u all d way. We await ur success story. Congratulations!.

  2. First of all, a very big hug to you ({})…P.S All hope is not lost…. All you need to do is look for d light in d midst of d darkness… Look for sometin, anything at all abt botany dat interests u. I know dat some plants are used to cure some illnesses, right? And dat relates to Medicine. So you can find a part of botany dat has to do with Medicine ‘n dat will probably spark ur interest in it! … And personally I tink u shud talk to ur parents abt it, tell dem dat u wud still love to study medicine ‘n surgery. Let dem kno abt it. You wud be surprised at their positive reactions. Then u on ur own, start applying to other universities where u can study medicine. Work hard! ‘n I’ll bet u’ll be accepted to study medicine ‘n surgery. It’s neva too late to pursue a dream… ‘n u never know when ur knowledge abt botany will come in handy in d future. Like my brother always says, No Knowledge is wasted. I wish you the very best ‘n I hope you find your silver lining really fast!

  3. I know what it feels like to be ‘expected’ to be excellent. It was only two days ago tears were running down my face because my average dropped and I wasn’t on first class and this was a course I didn’t want to read in the first place.
    I say find something you like doing and start it – Its easier to be happy if you have at least one part of your life happy – and DON’T GIVE UP! Its not over until you stop trying. God bless you.
    If you want to talk then mail me – bondess007@ymail.com.

  4. Ezechukwu….its interesting to know that even after being expelled you were still able to pick up your self,that’s wonderful because you would be needing to do that again★…Albert Einstein said “Everyone is a genuis,but if you judge a fish on its ability to climb a tree it would live its whole life believing that it is stupid”…from what you wrote its clear Botany isn’t for you plus your not even interested in it…so my advice is to find that your ‘area of strength’ and begin to develop it now!..,that way you would find joy in waking up each morning,because you know that asides botany your waking up to something that would bring out the real you…in the meantime,try to find a glimpse of light in Botany,lol am sure its not that bad and there’s something that would interest you in it…but while the certificate\school Cgpa might be low,make sure your putting effort into increasing and developing your self and your life ‘cgpa’ which is the real deal★…when you have been able to develop that skiill,ability and interest in you,botany becomes an added advantage/a plus and not a disadvantage/a minus…GOD will see you through..Success!

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